A Routine Evaluation of My Accomplishments at This Late Stage of the Middle Part of My Career

Photograph by Jose Padua
Because of a mix tape I played for what
must have been a couple of decades, I can’t
hear Prince’s “I Wanna Be Your Lover”
without expecting to hear T.S. Monk’s
“Bon Bon Vie (Gimme the Good Life)”
right after it. There were train rides when
I was so weary I’d fall asleep in minutes,
days when I was so sad flowers lacked both
scent and color. Weeks were lost like socks
with holes in them and days recalled like
bad products except there was no store
where I could take them back, no class action
lawsuit for squandered opportunities and
essential connections missed. These years
of love have sustained me far beyond
anything I ever could have imagined;
a dusting to an inch of snow overnight
on cold asphalt resulting in a two hour delay
is all part of the good life. I admit I didn’t
always know this, just as I understand
that there are gaps in my resume that
will never be explained, and disturbances
in my sleep that briefly interrupt the dream.

-Jose Padua

Photograph by Jose Padua

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6 responses to “A Routine Evaluation of My Accomplishments at This Late Stage of the Middle Part of My Career

  1. This is so resonant and gorgeous, Jose. Wonderful.

  2. I’d say the late stage of the middle part of your career is going quite well. I know the mix tape phenomenon. Public Enemy’s Profits of Rage will *always* follow Waiting Room by Fugazi.

    • shenandoahbreakdown

      thanks, Jeff! ah, making a mix tape for someone was like writing a letter that goes in the mail–it seemed much more personal and direct! (Public Enemy and Fugazi would work nicely back to back!)

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